Tuesday, January 21, 2020

Freedom from Drama

I used to wonder
How there was always
So much chaos and
So much confusion in my life.
It was a never ending tragedy
With me in the starring role of
The Damsel in Distress.
The same damsel
Romanticized across pop culture.
You saw her everywhere -
Books, Movies, Theater, Music.
Waiting for her knight in shining armor
Who'd swoop in and save the day.
Or her. Save her. Fix her. Love her.
She didn't have a solid sense of self
She allowed what she saw
To dictate who she became.

Cut to now.
She sees through what it was really.
She just didn't want to take responsibility for herself.
She thought it was someone else's job.
She was taking care of everyone else but her
So that means others should take care of her?
What kind of warped logic was that?
Turns out she'd misunderstood how life operated
On a very fundamental level.

In her perpetual search for
Love, acceptance and protection
Outside of herself
She kept giving away her power to others
Who didn't know their own power either.
She was contributing to the drama
To get her needs met.
But they weren't met.
They couldn't be.
Instead she created self-defeating patterns
That became unconscious prisons for the mind.

Now I love myself
I honor who I am
I'm learning to take full responsibility for me.
I cannot save or fix others
Just like they cannot save or fix me.
We can inspire each other yes
But each person has to put in the work
For themselves for it's an inside job.

When most battles are in the mind
I'm the only one who can untangle
And free myself of the mess I created.
This is not selfishness.
This is being self-full.
This is stepping out of the way
So each person can step into their own power
Without enabling the bad behavior
That romanticizes playing the victim.

Turns out the victim is not the hero
Even in pop culture.
I want to be the hero in my own story.
I swoop in to save the day.
I take very good care of me.
Oh and I steer clear of drama.
Turns out I cannot be confused
And clear at the same time.
So I deliberately choose clarity.
Tis Time to step out of the victim hood.
No time to create drama really
When you've got to go be a hero!

a*k²







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