Because I Love You

So what would it look like?
"Like the ocean needs the sand
or a dirty old shoe that fits"
Somehow Darren Hayes always
Always seems to capture my feelings accurately.

I want the real thing.
Real and pure and true.
Nothing less will do.

When I find you,
It'll be magic and music and butterflies.
I'll feel like a little girl
Who fell in love for the very first time.
Because I've been looking for you
All my life through all the distractions.
Despite all the pain and suffering
I know that every new day is
A day closer to you
It's a day I want to live.
Yes for this but also for other reasons.
I'm here for a reason.
I may not know the exact specifics
For what is my life's journey.
But I'm confident I'll know soon enough.
Even if I don't,
If I manage to live this out until the end,
That will be no ordinary victory to me.

I know now that my life
Will always be about me first.
The more I love myself,
The more I can love you unconditionally.
The more I trust myself,
The more I can trust you.
The more I back myself,
The more I can back you.

When I close my eyes,
Your smiling face will be what I see.
And that will light me up from the inside
Because deep down loving you will be loving myself.
Because I will have what I waited for all my life.
Not as a dream, not as a deeply subconscious calling
But as a true manifestation in reality.