Believer

I want to be a believer

I want to believe that good things can and will happen to me.

And just because they happened, they are not going to go away.

I want to believe that my present and future are not dictated by my past.

I do not want to punish someone for someone else's mistakes

Or for the lessons life determined I should learn.

I wish to be naive, I want to believe once more.

How do I let go of fear?

How do I learn to trust once again?

To have faith when an aspect of my life

Has always broken me without fail?

What is going to make this time different?

I feel like I am going to fall

From a greater height this time

I do fear I won't survive

But I know I will.

I wish this is the last time I have to trust and not see it break

And pray what's in my life is here to stay.

Archie